SUDAH JATUH, DITIMPA TANGGA :'(

18-19 JUNE 2011.

kenapa lh Allah tu memberi aku ujian yg aku tk mampu nk hadapi,

semalam after study account *killer subject. i was sent text to my biological dad and my step father wishing em : HAPPY FATHER'S DAY :')

after i wishing em, continue study for account naseb baek roomate i kak ecah ajar i sampai faham klw tk nth macam mana nk apply punn tk tao lh, it's not easier to apply when i've not background in account 

so i need to put my effort for that :'( *chayoook eyaa! you can do it!

1- then ayh was called me that mama just admited in hospital pantai bangsar cause whole her bodies jadi kejang, sejuk and susah nk bernafas :'(

and SUMPAH lepas tu aku tkde mood langsung nak study, ALAHUKHBAR :'(

aku dh nekad nk balek but aku ada KI(KEMAHIRAN INSANIAH) ayh punn tkbg balek sbb ayh boleh jaga mama tp klw lh korg mesti korg tk boleh tdo and macam macam korg pikir kn? so do i :'(

2- NT saketkan kn hati i in the same day an time padahal dia tao aku risaw kt mama aku,

dia just suruh aku sabar and bnykkn berdoa, ttp cerita tu dia bukak cerita pasal aku wtw dgn org laen,

haishhh maca tkde hari laen je ohh. masa ni jugak kaw nk gdo lepas tu macam macam lh kua dari mulut dia. di saat aku perlukan kaw waktu aku down, kaw blah cmtu je. fineee, tu bukan SATU MASALAH PADA AKU SBB AKU LAGI RISAWKN MAMA AKU!

3- 19 JUNE 2011, 9.15PM

Kenapa dgn kaw? susah sangat ke nk faham aku? hari hari dohh kaw buat aku menanges. 

otak aku ni pk macam macam :'(

dgn mama aku, dgn study aku. sumpah aku tk kuat dohh.

ikutkan jelah. buat aku DOWN setiap hari punn aku tkkesa asalkan HATI KAW PUAS!

p.s : i need to keep smiling and pretend that i'm always in happiness. i do to be strong and facing an obstacle from ALLAH S.W.T. :')