Monday, November 21, 2011

saya anak MALAYSIA :D


i'm so proud on you malaysia. memang korang baham garuda. bukan senang utk korg menang di halaman org lain without spirit :') korang telah membuktikan pengorbanan korg and tk sia-sia kerja keras korg even korg letihhhh mcm nk mati. kali ni biaq depa gigit jari! biarlah kita menjadi contoh utk generasi baru :)
kita menang dengan maruah! hitam kuning hitam kuning GO TIGER.


pls : aku menggunakan bahasa baku, kerana aku bangga menjadi anak MALAYSIA! 

Friday, November 4, 2011

aku sakit ke? :(

lately ni aku rasa badan tk sedap je, kadang2 rasa sakit sngt dada smpai susah nk bernafas. the new one pulak tk boleh sejuk, bila da sejuk je mula la badan2 aku rasa sakit. mama ckp sbb *kamu kurang calcium, kurus and kamu kn ada anemic* and i was like -___-

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

meet my flamingo girls :D

on 7th november 2011 me gonna meet all flamingo girls, wish all of em tk busy on tht day.
i miss you baby gallllll <3

Monday, October 31, 2011

new month ♥


we just having an awesome days, now we gonna through a new months its NOVEMBER
octoberrrr already left us with kind swettestttttt memories
me pray for this month tht all my wishes and dream comes true, insyaallah
thank to Allah s.w.t because of you me still meet november :') alhamdulillah
theres a lotsa of crucial things :D
31 oct : my friend anisah left m'sia :'(
4 nov : result examination for semester 2 :/
8 nov : its myyyy birthdayyy ;)
20 nov : me goinggg back to uitm lendon :'(


pls : a big thanks to Allah to opening my eyes and seeing how vast the world is also met november 2011

Sunday, October 30, 2011

hajah khalijah awang saad :')

me just miss you nenek, eventhough you're not here but inside hereeeeeee i still fell that you still alive.
insyaallah we gonna meet oneday :')
hope you fine there with para-para syuhadah insyaallah. every single days in my solat i always ask Allah to send my regards to you, this 4nov me gonna get my examination result pray for me nenek.
i miss you, and last words *no one can be like you also can replace for NENEK*

pls : kakak rindu nk tdo dgn nenek, nk suruh nenek mandikan and bg makan ubat bila kakak demam :'(

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

proud to be suria farida daughter :')

yes i proud to be their daughter, during the semester break mama tk pernah lupa ask me to take vitamin C (for skin) also milk, yela dkt uitm mama ckp me look so skinny, pale serupa tk cukup makan.
thankssss mama! ;D

pls : me love you so muchhhhhhh mama <3 

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

silly :'(

supposedly tk perlu in contact in facebook, idk why when i open his page i feel wanna cry :'(
in twitter he such loving person but in facebook he just ignore me perhaps he scared to tell who am i to him. me so bodohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, now my tearsssssss couldn't stop to cryingggggg. ohhgodddd :(
pleaseee la ohh, i try to conceal how much my feeling when i heard sth nonsense, you want me to be like you want but did you be like i want? :(

pls : i shouldn't cry for ths kind of.

Monday, October 24, 2011

let me

just let me have this feeling of jealously, just let me mad at you everydays instead i'm caring about you.
just let me know how much you measure my love toward you, just let me cry everydays because of you, just letttttt me,
if you realise ; ohhh mannnnn i love you, don't you get it? this is my hints you still couldn't take it seriously! shittttt :'(

pls : once this feeling dissapear you must know what my answer also my feeling toward you change or still be the one :')

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

johan arif ♥


ye ye ye, i tau i tau mesti korang tauuuuu kn gambar sapa i amik ni!
hee, fasha sandha and johan arif in *cinta elysa*
k, k constantly johan arif ni known as BOTAK JUVANA,
masa tu dia tk berapa nk menyerlah kn, masa cinta elysa dia mmg hottttsetapppp!
k,k i fall in love dgn botak juvana ni bukan sbb dia *HANDSOME* or what!
sbb dia mmg cool and cara dia layan elysa(fasha sandha)
memeyy nmpk mcm garangggg, gila-2 most crucial skali dia suka ckp kasarrrr dgn elysha!
the wordddd yg i sukaaaaaaaa sekalii, masa dia sound elysa :
*kau ni menangis je keje, kau tk penat ke?*
lol! 1 rumah gelak-2 guling la dgr :/
sickkkkkk of your crazyness johan ariffff! <3
tp pada hakikatnya dia sayangkan elysaaaa!
sweeeettttt kn kn? can i've like this kind of boyfriend? :')
hahaahahh, gataiiii xD

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

i learn and i earn :')

this is the old you.
i really miss it.

i left you for a few months,
its just remind you, to be more appreciate whenever someone loveyou like you thought :')
i'd like to be ego, and i know you hate me when i BECAME A NEW ONE.
yes i do love you, but idk how to tell you like i'd before.
i conceal all my feeling towards you,
i refuse to show you how much iloveyou.


you love me and i love you #thisisfact
you remind me all kind us memories :')
you try to show up that how am i before this,
you also thought me to be a strongers,
yesssss, i never erase our memories that we have been created,
insyaallah, Allah know what the best way of us,
Allah never separated us, perhaps *we're meant together*
nowwwwwww
me let you to know that *AKU CINTA PADAMU*
:')
lotsa loves to you.
iloveyouuuuu
iwantyouuu
ineedyouu
iheartyouuu
imissyouuu
iadoreyouuu
ioweeeyouuu


F R I E N D
that what you want?
you did it. :')


myyyyygadddd ♥


perhaps i'll whisper to him ; You may hold my hand for a while, but you hold my heart forever.
how sweet they're, i just realise my story same goes this part of titanic scene.
he never let me in pain, he willing all pain of mine hit him.
he loves me rather than he love his life.
#i wish oneday the true love will do the same on this picture :")

yuppp! that is so trueeeeeeeeeeee :')
i wish i can turn the time.
i miss the old of you

ego♥

why this quote i pick? lemme tell you why. i'm sick to heard ; kenapa kau susah nak buang ego kau? kau jangan seksa diri kau la. jangan jadi budak kecil, kesian la sikit kt diri kau.
i've learned to understand what you need, what kind of that can make you laugh, sharing our dreams, also our sorrow but i never learned to be PERFECT GIRL AND YOUR TRUE LOVE.
:( you know who am i and you really know deeply my heart, i try to forget also hate you, but it doesn't working bcs my heart refuse to do that.

Monday, October 3, 2011

willy nilly :/

i prefer to faced a book, reading or memorizing rather than calculation. 

10.48pm

Sometimes the things you say actually do hurt. I don't trust words but I trust actions.

move foward babyyyy gal! ♥

just now he said : no la you. i pointing kt org lain :( 

*k, k i faham. you da ada gf baru, awww :'( tkpe sayang i doakan you tau tau 
i tkkn pernah lupakan you, if you've anythings nk share i'm here.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

hello baby OCTOBER byeebyee sep sep S.E.P.T.E.M.B.E.R ♥

i'm wishing for this october my family lives in happiness and fulfill loves! my life can be better, i can be more independent without relying anyone else and be more, more and more cheerful!
september already left us.
Smile is language of heart, it says everything without uttering anything.
enjoy and have fun in baby OCTOBER  

Friday, September 30, 2011

little lecture accounting :')


ni budak comell ni nama dia ana rahman, dia suka sebut *anyongg* comell tau.
she so sweet sbb edia pandai in accounting and dia sngt2 diperlukan bila budak class ada yg tk fhm! :D kira little lecturer la. 
dia always nk ajar yeya even yeya tk offer diri punn, klw yeya dpt marks *cukup-cukup makan* she still do thumbs up to me sbb dia tau yeya boleh, dia da macam sister da :')
ana thanks tau sbb ajar yeya accounting :( yeya sayang awk, awk sabar ajar yeya, yeya lembabbbb macam siput awk still lg terangkan until yeya fhm, bila yeya takut awk always supporting yeya. :( thanks tau! 
nti klw yeya pass in exam accounting yeya nk bawak awk pegy mcd jela or secret recipe, tu je yg mampu you'olls :DD
iloveyouuuuuu baby gall <3




ni farah, she my junior. actually ada lg sorg nama dia wani tp tkde pulak pic dia! sorry sayang kak yeya da cuba cari tp tk jumpa. korg kak yeya maluuuuu gila mula2 nk belajar dgn korg, yela supposed senior ajar junior ni tk junior ajar senior :') thankssss tauuu akk tk tau mcm mana nk ckp lg sbb korg mmg baik. korg bila akk da pass paper account akk belanja mkn, ni ats budiman korg :( klw korg tkde mcm mana la akk, kawan2 akk jauh nk kesana punn time ada keje je, bosan la asyik ckp thanks je, teheee! k, k, akk sayangkan korg and akk doakan korg dapat berjaya didunia dan akhirat! loveyouuuuu bumblebieeee <3

blog sudah lama bersawang :D

kinda busyness babayy gal :)

Thursday, August 4, 2011

my single lady status sometimes make me PROUD as i stand by my own side, no one beside me accept my FAMILY, FRIENDS and mama always reminds me that ALLAH loves us, he'll be only and one :')

Monday, August 1, 2011

lol! 
someone said : sy suka tgok awk tk makeup and ikat rambut nmpk comel sangat!
me : huh? bila pulak sy makeup ni? sy tk suka makeup la, klw makeup punn time ada (kebudayaan) :)

mine makeup : moisturizer olay.
                        : baby powder pink.
                        : eyes liner silky girl.
ini saja yg sllu sy pakai di muka, klw sy ke class and either hangout with family or friends saja baru sy pakai eyes liner. sy tk suka makeup. i love to be natural. <3

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

if someone who really loves you, they wouldn't let you slip away.
no matter how BIG SITUATION IS :')

i love you not only for who you are, but for who i'm with you 

Thursday, July 14, 2011

lama sudaa tk update.
hehe, tkde apa nk cerita, lately busy sikit.
about perasaan? acehh okay je, sy dn si dia even kami BFF kiteorg still baik. 

Sunday, July 3, 2011

sunday 7.12pm ♥

disini aku ILYA ATHIRA nk buat pengakuan yg aku dh break dgn ASIF AZIMI ATAS KEMAHUAN AKU and korg boleh judge aku ckp aku yg minta tp kesengsaran yg aku hadapi tkde org tao.
and DIA DH BUAT AKU LUPAKAN DIA START SUNDAY 7.12PM 3JULY aku dh berjaya lupakan dia.


please : sudah lh awak saya dh ikhlas kn hati saya. :')

Saturday, July 2, 2011

:') 3 july 2011

life? are life is never be unfair? 
YES, LIFE NEVER BE EASIER AND THE FAILURES MAKE US BECOME A BETTER PERSON.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

SUDAH JATUH, DITIMPA TANGGA :'(

18-19 JUNE 2011.

kenapa lh Allah tu memberi aku ujian yg aku tk mampu nk hadapi,
semalam after study account *killer subject. i was sent text to my biological dad and my step father wishing em : HAPPY FATHER'S DAY :')
after i wishing em, continue study for account naseb baek roomate i kak ecah ajar i sampai faham klw tk nth macam mana nk apply punn tk tao lh, it's not easier to apply when i've not background in account 
so i need to put my effort for that :'( *chayoook eyaa! you can do it!

1- then ayh was called me that mama just admited in hospital pantai bangsar cause whole her bodies jadi kejang, sejuk and susah nk bernafas :'(
and SUMPAH lepas tu aku tkde mood langsung nak study, ALAHUKHBAR :'(
aku dh nekad nk balek but aku ada KI(KEMAHIRAN INSANIAH) ayh punn tkbg balek sbb ayh boleh jaga mama tp klw lh korg mesti korg tk boleh tdo and macam macam korg pikir kn? so do i :'(

2- NT saketkan kn hati i in the same day an time padahal dia tao aku risaw kt mama aku,
dia just suruh aku sabar and bnykkn berdoa, ttp cerita tu dia bukak cerita pasal aku wtw dgn org laen,
haishhh maca tkde hari laen je ohh. masa ni jugak kaw nk gdo lepas tu macam macam lh kua dari mulut dia. di saat aku perlukan kaw waktu aku down, kaw blah cmtu je. fineee, tu bukan SATU MASALAH PADA AKU SBB AKU LAGI RISAWKN MAMA AKU!

3- 19 JUNE 2011, 9.15PM
Kenapa dgn kaw? susah sangat ke nk faham aku? hari hari dohh kaw buat aku menanges. 
otak aku ni pk macam macam :'(
dgn mama aku, dgn study aku. sumpah aku tk kuat dohh.
ikutkan jelah. buat aku DOWN setiap hari punn aku tkkesa asalkan HATI KAW PUAS!

p.s : i need to keep smiling and pretend that i'm always in happiness. i do to be strong and facing an obstacle from ALLAH S.W.T. :')

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Every single night you makes me cry in darkness and makes me feel upset.
tell me am i do WRONGDOINGS TOWARD YOU? :/

not in mood. eyaafarid :') 

Saturday, June 11, 2011

i was shocked what you did, i won't do anything until you realise your own :')
i do to love you, i know the way that you always make me happy and feel that i always belongs to me,
but indeed your fault last night so i just need you to admits the mistake that you do in obviously THAT'S ALL (!)
i didn't do any wrongdoing towards you but you still said what i did before, *p.s it's not the same situation okay.
whatever is, don't to be selfish. i'm just human being like you

mark this words okay.
*if i still keeping mad or jealousy on you I STILL DO TO CARE OR LOVE YOU,
once i ignore what you did infront or behind me and shut my mouth off
I THINK YOU KNOW THE ANSWERS*

Thursday, June 2, 2011

busy ♥

busy? yes i'm. well semester two was beginning and the subject quite tough.
sampaikan nk facebook and blogging punn dh jarang lh. facebook punn dh makin bored indeed,
guess what? i've junior and we're ragging em *a big NO, i was joke. its not ragging but it is just an induction senang kata TRADISI kolej (asrama) lh. hehe, and who wanna my signature they need do sth and i ask em to dance *GELANG SI PAKU GELANG and copy my dance and my buttocks* naah, they do it very well, 
ada 1 group ni buat roti and nuttella, seriously teringat our senior, i do miss my senior sbb last semester this level agak meriah and this semester aren't *maybe.
next week dh start belajar and this semester i've ONE SUBJECT KILLER : financial accountancy :(
so this we'll be two times i akn menanges in the class bcs of this subject, haisshhh mostly in mine classes have a background accountancy and EYAA FARID don't have, dulu business math now financial accountancy.
so, apa lg study lh kn kn? study gila gila lh :)
last semester alhamdulillah tkde paper yg i failed and this semester mmg tkkn ada and hope can get the better pointer then last semester. 
:)
amin.
eyaa farid , xD

Friday, May 13, 2011

can't sleep :'(

i can't sleep now, alots of mosquito :'( eventhough dh pasang ubat nyamuk. * sorry granpa. 
muka, kaki and obviously pada tangan mmg nmpk BINTATnya :'(
nyamuk kampung mmg kaww kaww dohh.
nyamuk please, bagi i tdo :'(

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

A relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows; Love can erase an awful past, Love can be yours, you'll see at last; To feel that love, it makes you sigh, To have it leave,  you'd rather die; You hope you've found that special rose, 'Cause you love and care for the one you chose :')

Friday, May 6, 2011


this quote for you.
i want to tell you, but i'm afraid.
i just need a fews days and times, to know myself and yourself,
why we've been together and how to built a strong relation.
i won't leave you, as long you won't do at me.
i love you so deeply,
but i know, you can see how much is't.
:')

Thursday, May 5, 2011

its hard to answering your question 'WHATS WRONG?' when nothings right :'(
bored.
did i've wrongdoing toward you?
naaah,
in whole day i'm crying.
please GOD give me strength.
i don't the same mistake will be happen :'(

miss my family :'(


naah, seriously i miss my family.
after i finished my final exam until now i don't meet em.
tomorrow is MOTHER'S DAY. 
awww, please please i just need cuddle from em.
this saturday i'm going back my village, my granpa homie meet my second little sissy.
she currently studying at boarding sch in kedah which area around granpa homie.
and i can meet my late granny at graveyard.
:'(

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

salam buat kekasih :')

Salam Untuk Kekasih
Di sebalik kalbu
Yang semakin layu
Terbenam rasa rindu
Terkunci suara hati
Tiada siapa tahu

Dimanakah kasih
Tak seperti dulu
Kata kau sayangkan ku
Benarkah itu

Walau kehadiranku hanyalah sementara
Bukan salahmu sayang kira kau jatuh cinta
Akan ku pergi jauh takkan kembali
Salam maaf permisi
Ku undur diri

Kini ku bersara
Dengan langkah baru
Menyisi luka ini
Kekasih... sekeras aku
Terhiris kerna kamu

Ku tinggalkan cinta
Kisah yang berlalu
Kisah kenangan kita
Hanya kau tahu

Walau kehadiranmu bagaikan menghiasi
Bukan caraku sayang harap engkau mengerti
Pemergianku ini tak ku relai
Salam maaf permisi
Ku undur diri.

:')
hati yg sedang terumbang ambing ; the naddeyaa <3

bukan mudah : )

kenapa dgn awak ni lg?
bila saya ada cerita pasal awak?
kenal punn tk nak cerita apa. eishhh.
apa lg awak ni? apa?
hari ni saya gdo besar sbb awak tahu.
awak dh puas dh hati awak ckp macam tu?
saya tk kenal awak so tkkn nk tulis pasal awak kt blog saya.
siap post kt wall dia mintak maaf sume, woiii (!) macam i ada buat pape kt kaw pulak.
please lh wehh.
i tk kesaa nk kawan ke nk apa ke, jangan LIBATKAN I!
i sikit tk kenal pasal you, erghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :/

*ni apa lg?

Hello, sy bg pihak yin mintak maaf. Jgn mrh dia please. Dia nak bkwn je, dia bkn jenis amek hak org lain. Dia respect hak eyaa dkt awak. So, big sorry from her 

siap suo kawan lg cakap macam ni! you sedar tk yang you salah apahal nk cakap macam tu?
ehh, tk reti lh nk gdo, tolong lh, ya ALLAH apa korang ni.
dh puas belum buat aku????
buat lg! buat sampai aku down. :'(
mintak maaf konon, mintak maaf macam kucing kn. yeahhh GOOD.
THUMBS UP :)


p.s : niat i bukan nk gdo, tp please okay jangan nk serbu dulu. and i don't mind if you wanna be her friend, but P.S jangan nk cakap sth nonsense that i never mention.
thanks alots.
xo

Thursday, April 21, 2011


hahhaaahaahah!
ini dia budak yg minat pada JUSTIN BIEBER :p
yay!
saya dapat ticket.
excited kut!
thanks pada mama still bank in pada i.
thanks juga pada YONA SHAHIRAH AND IJOY HAMID yg telah booked dari awal utk saya.
to my shawty bieber : aww, i can see you eventhough i can't hug you but i still can hear your sweet voices plus hear your tiny foot..
iloveyouu :')

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

ALHAMDULILLAH :)

hari ni habis satu killer paper * M.I.C.E (meeting, incentive, conference and exhibition) 
seriously saya dapat jawab, nk kata senang tk jugak, nk kata susah punn tk. senang kata in the middle line.
semua org dgr tourism macam senang, mehh sini belajar baru tao. 
ALHAMDULILLAH apa yg saya baca itu yg kua tp ada yg lupa :(
hati saya tenang bila paper m.i.c.e already done, bukan apa paper tu killer kut, pehh mmg susah lh.
kalau tk tao pasal current issue and tk baca TEKS BOOK AND MODULE dia yg tebal tu mmg tk dapat jawab. majority suka cakap 'don't study hard but study smart' tp saya sedar tahap kemampuan saya, saya bukan smart person, so saya kena lh study hard moreover i'm the eldest sissy. 
mama mmg sporting gilagila, kiranya apa yg saya buat saya nk semua mama tao dn cuba berikan, walupunn saya the eldest tp saya punya indulgent act same like my lil sissy. LOL. 
somtimes mama being my friend and sometimes she being like mother yg suka bubbling :p
mama siap pesan lg, if saya tk dapat pointer macam last sem '3.03' mama will taken all my facilities :'(
sbb mama dh ikut segala kehendak saya, saya faham kenapa mama buat macam tu, TY mama, iloveyou mama. <3
naah, i show the wording that given from : mama, ayh, snugybyyy, my coach cheerleader and my friend. 


* pillow (my ex) :( : bby buat betul-betul and good luck okay? i sayang you bby, hari2 dia text aku sbb nk pujuk aku :( sorry sayanggggg! iloveyouuu :'(
*mama : ya ALLAH terangi hati anakku dan permudahkan lah ia dlm mnjawab semua soalan2 ujian. ya ALLAH i pray for my daughter's successes in her life, please bless my daughter ilya athira.. RELAX AND CLAM WHEN YOU ANSWER QUESTIONS. :'( (after i read the texted i was like touched, aww mama. itu lah saya mahu sebenarnya, saya menunggu mama call or text akhirnya after subuh baru mama text. mama saya lakukan semua ni semua demi mama dn arwah nenek, mama saya ketepikan minat saya dalam menari even saya dapat tawaran di ASWARA and past all their examination, mama tao kn ni saya minat since i was 3 years. you sent me at auntie malini's dance classes, and when i'm secondary til primary sch i'm involving with kebudayaan. i can dancer, i can cheer (not profession) and i can dance for tarian melayu, but since you and nenek said benda tu tkkn menjamin masa depan saya, saya akur mama. now saya suka dgn apa yg saya buat sekarang! yay! mama, thanks mama <3 )
*ayh : wahai anak ku tersayang cmne exam tadi? ku iringi dgn doa semuga khendaknya (ayh, ayh saya sayang awak, even you're my step father tp ayh lebih care lagi pada abh -.- kenapa lh ayh tk jadi abh saya? :'(
saya sayang ayh, dan saya mgharap abh hantar macam ayh anta tp ternyata ayh lebih ingat saya dari abh. )
*miss.tahlia : yeya, i heard from your mom that today you punya final di uitm. i'm wishing you good luck, wahh suda ada di melak tk mahu mali ke sch lama awak. sekarang ni cheer kita sudah mantap tk macam lulu. (awww, i was shocked bila coach cheer aku text macam tu, happy kut. tp saya tkdapat belajar buat SPILT lg :( and my (Y) still tk tgak sangat. grrr. tp saya happy sbb dapat jd FLYERS maklum lh kn i kn kurus plus kecil. haahahah. miss my xena's girl!) 
* all my friend : eyaa, good luck :)
hah, nmpk kn mereka sayang saya? 
saya punn sayang mereka jugakkkkk! ty for those yg wish 'GGOD LUCK AND GIVE THE SPIRIT'S WORDING' pada saya.
<3
lots of love ; si gedik eyaa farid.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

mood : study :)


khamis ni bermula lh final aku,
tp aku macam nth lh, before final pehh study bukan maen lg.
tp aku ttp kena study.
sbb i've promise with my late granny and my mom that i must study hard and be a good girl.
no matter what, i need put more effort on my study because i want achieve in order what i do.
betul kata mama : no matter what, life go on. life never be easier and failures make us become a better person.
and don't give up in what we do.
always ask sth if we don't know, mybe looked foolish for a 5 minutes,
but if we don't ask, we'll be the foolish forever.
hehehe.
mama, family, kawan-kawan, yang tersayang sume support aku.
so? i'll prove that i can do it.
yay!
this cheer for me : i'm fired up!
i'm sizzling! 
when i come to exam i can do it!
yay!
i can do it.
let me yeya yeya yeya, yay!
H, E double L, O
i'm eyaa.
and i wish i'll do the best!
never heard of defeat,
i'll rise to top!
i never stopped.
:)
p.s : i'm exhausted :p


Monday, April 18, 2011

LIFE IN A LOVE.

Escape me?
Never—
Beloved!
While I am I, and you are you,
So long as the world contains us both,
Me the loving and you the loth,
While the one eludes, must the other pursue.
My life is a fault at last, I fear—
It seems too much like a fate, indeed!
Though I do my best I shall scarce succeed—
But what if I fail of my purpose here?

It is but to keep the nerves at strain,
To dry one's eyes and laugh at a fall,
And baffled, get up to begin again,—
So the chase takes up one's life, that's all.
While, look but once from your farthest bound,
At me so deep in the dust and dark,
No sooner the old hope drops to ground
Than a new one, straight to the selfsame mark,
I shape me—
Ever
Removed!

p.s ; adoring love poem by robert browning. he my idole. :)

Sunday, April 17, 2011

masa :'(

berikan masa utk faham awak.
berikan masa utk saya kenal siapa awak.
berikan masa utk saya percaya pada awak.
berikan masa utk saya berkata 'SAYA MILIK AWAK'
berikan masa utk saya behenti ada perasaan 'CEMBURU' pada awak.
berikan masa utk saya berfikir adakah saya terbaek utk awak.


*sumpah saya sayang awak, saya cinta awak walaupunn saya bukan milik awak lg.
saya mmg seorang yg CEMBURU tk bertempat, saya hanyalah manusia biasa yg tk pernah lari dari kesalahan :'(
saya suka cemburu sbb saya takut kehilangan awak, tp awak tk pernah faham apa yg saya rasakan.
saya pernah alaminya. bila saya tk cemburu org tu bermesra-mesraan and buat dia jatuh cinta padanya last sekali tinggalkan saya.
:'(
saya lemah, saya tk reti nk jadi kuat. saya cuma sayangkan awak.

p.s : ni bukan ayt saya google or what. ni luahan hati seorang perempuan bernama eyaa farid <3

Friday, April 15, 2011

kaw pergi :'(


Today genap 8 bulan nenek pergi.
yes (!) aku merinduinya.
nenek bila nenek nk datang jumpa kakak?
kakak rindu nk bermanja dgn nenek.
mama asyek marah kakak je,
kalau nenek ada, mesti nenek marah mama kn? :')
kakak kdg kdg jealous ohh dgn org yg ada nenek,
kakak dh tkde dh :'(
nenek happy tk kt sana?
nenek org kata nenek MENINGGAL DUNIA. tp kakak tk percaya sbb mama kata nenek pergi kejap je kn? hee. kakak tnggu nenek okay?
nenek kakak dh nk exam, nenek doakan kakak ye?
BALEK CEPAT NENEK! RINDU NK TDO DGN NENEK LG (!) :'(
p.s : saya tk gila tp saya tao nenek ada dgn saya :')

Thursday, April 14, 2011

i'm sorry mama :'(

mama, sorry lh alg tk sengaja sbb tk ingat numb pin BANK ISLAM.
mama, thanks sbb stiill lg bank in kali ketiga. pinky swear afta this tk buat lg. 
promise tknk careless lg! :( 

Monday, April 11, 2011

cara memulihkan keadaan yang buat saya sedih :')


thanks box ku * hand made*
for those who had gave my a sweet memories and present,
i didn't trash it because i'm appreciate it :')
you know what?
saya sudaa belajar menerima segala-galanya.

*yona shahirah ; top up and bracelet *berpisah kerana keluarga :') lost contact. 
*abd rahman ; bukan boyfiee saya, tp hampir menjalinkan hubungan. crushing each other.
dia ni gedik, suka copy paste w.e.m.l. saya and 'euwww' dia pernah jadi superman saya!
dia belikan ' PINK KOALA BEAR' when he going ausie and celebrated eid with his family.
dia juga buat lagu untuk saya 'kenangan kita' dia pemangkin semangat saya! dia tk pernah putus asa untuk tunggu saya.
tp akhirnya dia jadi milik orang laen :)
RIMA & RAHMAN.
heyy superman, awak dh dapat orang yg baek, jaga elok-elok. 
maafkan saya sebab buat awak tertunggu saya, dan thanks jugak sbb memahami keadaan saya. :')
ingat tk masa kt ausie? you mimpi i siap ber-background lagu 'need you know :)'
lagu tu dgn 'for the raise of my life' buat saya ingat awak.
ehh, saya wonderwoman awak kn, dan awak superman saya. 

*asif azimi ; the guys yang paling lama dgn saya, and he the one i'll hate forever and ever! until i died i wont give you forgiveness CASANOVA!

*adhel azmy ; top up, padini shirt, hair clips, earing, mcD and strawberry,
:'( awak kenapalah awak tk pernah percaya kata-kata saya? saya sayang awak, tp awak tk pernah percaya pada saya walaupunn ryan sendiri dah bgtau dkt awak :'(
awak hunny star saya. kita pegy tau concert JUSTIN BIEBER *perjumpaan last? JANJI!

*ryan smith ; top up, rantai, icket monorail and slurpyy.
ryan awak pena jadi pikka boo saya kn? bodokan saya sbb jealous, tp awak tk bg saya peluang macam saya bg pada awak :(
padahal awak dh janji tknk tinggalkan saya? tkpe. benda dh lepas. saya terima dgn hati yg ikhlas. Tp 3 kali awak dumb sy mcmtu je! you just came passed by, kenapa awak? but saya dah relakan hati saya untuk lepaskan awak. 

p.s ; mereka buat saya teringat pada mereka,
tp sume saya dh simpan dlm box.
sbb saya dah tk perlukan kenangan tu lg.
thanks babe sbb pernah HAPPY KAN  ILYA ATHIRA FARID :')




Thursday, April 7, 2011

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

i'm not stronger than you :(
i can't be chill if anything will make me cry (!)
but, i still can smile and laugh what others do, 
because i'm not wiling to make you hurt.
i'm sorry if still being like a childish or to much jealousy,
if you want to do sth, PLEASE do infront me,
in order that i won't be like baby always crying the small matter.
and yes, I'M TRYING TO HIDE FROM YOU THAT I ALWAYS BE FUCKING JEALOUS IF ANYONE WHO FLIRT WITH YOU.
give me time to faces all this thing :'(
kiss me when i cry,
bless me when i died,
trust me and believe me,
that i always be yours if you still love and need me like i'm doing now.

ENOUGH!

STOP DISTURB MY LIFE (!)
what did you want huh? saya ikut kut kehendak AWAK DAN DIA.
indeed i feel the pain.
sekarang hati saya bukan milik awak (!) FULL STOP.
please, i'm begging to you JANGAN GANGGU ILYA ATHIRA :'(

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

learn how to understanding :')

yes, i do love you but i need time to understand your ways.
give me some time, i'm willing to do.
if the failures i made it, i just can say ; imma sorry, i put more harder to be the best but its still doesn't working :'(
i'm the girl who are quite jealousy, need more attention and always wanna say YOU'RE MINE :)
a lil bit worried if you're not mine oneday :(
so! 
my goals is to make him happy with me, i'll control my self from annoying things to make him aren't unhappy.



loves xD

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

pendengar yang hebat (!)

liyana musa.
can speak fluently in ENGLISH, JAPANESE AND KOREAN :)
my best classmate and the best ear.
ehh awak, saya sayang awak ye.
awak awak thanks brain wash saya punya otak ni -.-
awak, saya dh tk DOWN and NEGATIVE macam dulu.
janji ye kita kawan sampai bila-bila <3

Monday, March 21, 2011

Best Friend Forever ")

nor fazilah samsuddin.
3 JAN 2006 <3 
SMK.PUNCAK ALAM

wan nur fatin farhana.
26 JUN 2010<3
UITM KAMPUS MACHANG
The white's scarf ; iziati fazlien (sleeping patner 1)
The brown's scarf ; fatin amylina.
UITM MACHANG.
Atirah (sleeping partner 2)
UITM MACHANG
Hafiza ismail.
UITM MACHANG/ UITM ALOR GAJAH

Sometimes in life,
i find a special friend;
Someone who changes in my life
just by being part of it.
Someone who makes me laugh
until i can't stop;
Someone who makes me believe
that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces me
that there really is an unlocked door
just waiting for me to open it.

This is Forever Friendship.
When i've down,
and the world seems dark and empty,
our forever friend lifts up in spirit
and makes that dark and empty world
suddenly seem bright and full.
our forever friend gets us through
the hard times, the sad times,
and the confused times.
our forever friend holds us hand
and tells i'm that
everything is going to be okay.
And if i find such a friend,
i feel happy and complete,
because i don't need worry.
bc, i've a forever friend for life,
and forever has no end. 
ty babe cause being apart of my life :))

Saturday, March 19, 2011

wondering he know that i love you.

this is story about me, thinking about Justin Bieber.
with the headphone plugged in my ears think about the tears.
that would down for my chin.
if i'd touch Justin Bieber's skin.
because i love him so much.
that i just wanted to touch his charming faces.
ohh,
there is no better place,
that to be in his arm.
no, i don't loke farm.
Justin you're my heart,
so please just never blow the fart
and you don't want me to get mad,
because you wish you had Chuck Norris as your dad.
l laugh so hard,
the people nerd a green card
so they can fly away,
and don't have to stay,
because i make a noise,
when i've to make a choise,
if i'm gonna see you on stage
or be engaged <3
baby, imma tell you ONE TIME, that is gonna be ONE LESS LONELY GIRL,
when you become MY FAVORITE GIRL, cause you so DOWN THE EARTH,
and that how i like MY COMMON DENOMINATOR,
we gotta have a first dance, cause you LOVE ME.
*hahaah,
this poem, inspire while i'm hear all your song baby.
with lot of loves ; mrs.bieber<3





awww, you are the mine and only mine.
Idoloveyouubaby.
justin bieber; you my shawty,
eyaa; ye i'm, and i love you so :)

Thursday, March 17, 2011

cake chocolate :)

haha,
naahhh. ni roomates i ; kak ecah, dea ni gila gila sikit, sometimes dea garang like sis :)
even i'm eldest in my siblings i still macam bbyish :D
haahha, dea suka suap i segala makan, td suap cake chocolate.
thankie akk, masa mula mula kenal dea ni kerek je. 
lol!
sekarang ni ayt i yg i suka kacau dea ; akk, eyaa nk pukul akk lh :)
bengkek je dea :p
hahahha,
pape punn thanks akk <3

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

late granny :'(

today 7months granny passed away. :'(
16.8.2009, granny pergi dalam hidup saya.
this i show you what weird in this date.
*16.8.2010 - nenek pegy dalam hidup saya, dirumah saya, di katil saya :'(
- saya dgn asip 1 years.
- birhtday ex BFF saya.
16.3.2009 - adik naim *sepupu saya meninggal kerana excident.
16.3.1971 - birthday auntie saya.
awww, :'(
pelikkk knnnn?
* AL-FATIHAH for granny,
semoga nenek ditempatkan di tempat PARA PARA SYUHADAH :')

the best speaker.

every morning she'll send motivate email for me.
when i feel down, she be my shoulder.
when my tears linger around, she erase the tear,
when i'm yelling she try to silent me.
i always feel that i can't do,
i won't do,
i didn't do.
but she still give some strength for me.
i can't be independent person,
i always need her.
i don't have any BFF, anyone that i can share my matter and crying together.
i always need her.
when i feel alone, feel scare, feel i won't be a success person,
she always be my side in other situation :'(
today she sent an email to me.
the tittle of email is 'SELF CONFIDENT'
*Assalamualaikum.....and very Good Morning to my lovely princess!


Self-Confidence 
If you think you are beaten, you are;
If you think that you dare not, you don't;
If you
 would like to win and you think you can't
It's almost certain that you won't.

If you think you'll lose, you've lost;
For out in the world you'll find
Success begins with a fellows will -
It's all in the state of mind.

If you think that you are out-classed, you are;
You've got to think high to rise;
You've got to be sure of yourself before
You can ever win a prize.
Life's battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster man;
But sooner or later, the man who wins
Is the man who thinks he can.
<3
thanks mama:')
iloveyouu mama. 
sometimes you be my mama and my BFF.
mama, 
thanks you so much.
thanks cause you really understanding what teenager need and make me mature *sometimes :D
mama, i really thankful being your princess.
mama, mama, mama,
nothing important in my life except you, late granny and our family <3
mama, you the one always make my smile in every single day,
you bought sth to make my happy when i'm sulk ;)
awww, you know my fav colour, and you always said 'pink is annoying' :D
mama, mama,
kaw lahh segalanya untukku.
kaw curahhan hati ini,
tk mungkin ku melupakan mu,
tiada lg yg ku harapkan
hanya kaw seorangggg.

SURYANI BAKAR * SURIA :)