SUDAH JATUH, DITIMPA TANGGA :'(

18-19 JUNE 2011.

kenapa lh Allah tu memberi aku ujian yg aku tk mampu nk hadapi,

semalam after study account *killer subject. i was sent text to my biological dad and my step father wishing em : HAPPY FATHER'S DAY :')

after i wishing em, continue study for account naseb baek roomate i kak ecah ajar i sampai faham klw tk nth macam mana nk apply punn tk tao lh, it's not easier to apply when i've not background in account 

so i need to put my effort for that :'( *chayoook eyaa! you can do it!

1- then ayh was called me that mama just admited in hospital pantai bangsar cause whole her bodies jadi kejang, sejuk and susah nk bernafas :'(

and SUMPAH lepas tu aku tkde mood langsung nak study, ALAHUKHBAR :'(

aku dh nekad nk balek but aku ada KI(KEMAHIRAN INSANIAH) ayh punn tkbg balek sbb ayh boleh jaga mama tp klw lh korg mesti korg tk boleh tdo and macam macam korg pikir kn? so do i :'(

2- NT saketkan kn hati i in the same day an time padahal dia tao aku risaw kt mama aku,

dia just suruh aku sabar and bnykkn berdoa, ttp cerita tu dia bukak cerita pasal aku wtw dgn org laen,

haishhh maca tkde hari laen je ohh. masa ni jugak kaw nk gdo lepas tu macam macam lh kua dari mulut dia. di saat aku perlukan kaw waktu aku down, kaw blah cmtu je. fineee, tu bukan SATU MASALAH PADA AKU SBB AKU LAGI RISAWKN MAMA AKU!

3- 19 JUNE 2011, 9.15PM

Kenapa dgn kaw? susah sangat ke nk faham aku? hari hari dohh kaw buat aku menanges. 

otak aku ni pk macam macam :'(

dgn mama aku, dgn study aku. sumpah aku tk kuat dohh.

ikutkan jelah. buat aku DOWN setiap hari punn aku tkkesa asalkan HATI KAW PUAS!

p.s : i need to keep smiling and pretend that i'm always in happiness. i do to be strong and facing an obstacle from ALLAH S.W.T. :')

Every single night you makes me cry in darkness and makes me feel upset.
tell me am i do WRONGDOINGS TOWARD YOU? :/

not in mood. eyaafarid :') 

i was shocked what you did, i won't do anything until you realise your own :')

i do to love you, i know the way that you always make me happy and feel that i always belongs to me,

but indeed your fault last night so i just need you to admits the mistake that you do in obviously THAT'S ALL (!)

i didn't do any wrongdoing towards you but you still said what i did before, *p.s it's not the same situation okay.

whatever is, don't to be selfish. i'm just human being like you. 

mark this words okay.

*if i still keeping mad or jealousy on you I STILL DO TO CARE OR LOVE YOU,

once i ignore what you did infront or behind me and shut my mouth off

I THINK YOU KNOW THE ANSWERS*

busy ♥

busy? yes i'm. well semester two was beginning and the subject quite tough.

sampaikan nk facebook and blogging punn dh jarang lh. facebook punn dh makin bored indeed,

guess what? i've junior and we're ragging em *a big NO, i was joke. its not ragging but it is just an induction senang kata TRADISI kolej (asrama) lh. hehe, and who wanna my signature they need do sth and i ask em to dance *GELANG SI PAKU GELANG and copy my dance and my buttocks* naah, they do it very well, 

ada 1 group ni buat roti and nuttella, seriously teringat our senior, i do miss my senior sbb last semester this level agak meriah and this semester aren't *maybe.

next week dh start belajar and this semester i've ONE SUBJECT KILLER : financial accountancy :(

so this we'll be two times i akn menanges in the class bcs of this subject, haisshhh mostly in mine classes have a background accountancy and EYAA FARID don't have, dulu business math now financial accountancy.

so, apa lg study lh kn kn? study gila gila lh :)

last semester alhamdulillah tkde paper yg i failed and this semester mmg tkkn ada and hope can get the better pointer then last semester. 

:)

amin.

eyaa farid , xD