hahhaaahaahah!

ini dia budak yg minat pada JUSTIN BIEBER :p

yay!

saya dapat ticket.

excited kut!

thanks pada mama still bank in pada i.

thanks juga pada YONA SHAHIRAH AND IJOY HAMID yg telah booked dari awal utk saya.

to my shawty bieber : aww, i can see you eventhough i can't hug you but i still can hear your sweet voices plus hear your tiny foot..

iloveyouu :')

ALHAMDULILLAH :)

hari ni habis satu killer paper * M.I.C.E (meeting, incentive, conference and exhibition) 
seriously saya dapat jawab, nk kata senang tk jugak, nk kata susah punn tk. senang kata in the middle line.
semua org dgr tourism macam senang, mehh sini belajar baru tao. 
ALHAMDULILLAH apa yg saya baca itu yg kua tp ada yg lupa :(
hati saya tenang bila paper m.i.c.e already done, bukan apa paper tu killer kut, pehh mmg susah lh.
kalau tk tao pasal current issue and tk baca TEKS BOOK AND MODULE dia yg tebal tu mmg tk dapat jawab. majority suka cakap 'don't study hard but study smart' tp saya sedar tahap kemampuan saya, saya bukan smart person, so saya kena lh study hard moreover i'm the eldest sissy. 
mama mmg sporting gilagila, kiranya apa yg saya buat saya nk semua mama tao dn cuba berikan, walupunn saya the eldest tp saya punya indulgent act same like my lil sissy. LOL. 
somtimes mama being my friend and sometimes she being like mother yg suka bubbling :p
mama siap pesan lg, if saya tk dapat pointer macam last sem '3.03' mama will taken all my facilities :'(
sbb mama dh ikut segala kehendak saya, saya faham kenapa mama buat macam tu, TY mama, iloveyou mama. <3
naah, i show the wording that given from : mama, ayh, snugybyyy, my coach cheerleader and my friend. 


* pillow (my ex) :( : bby buat betul-betul and good luck okay? i sayang you bby, hari2 dia text aku sbb nk pujuk aku :( sorry sayanggggg! iloveyouuu :'(
*mama : ya ALLAH terangi hati anakku dan permudahkan lah ia dlm mnjawab semua soalan2 ujian. ya ALLAH i pray for my daughter's successes in her life, please bless my daughter ilya athira.. RELAX AND CLAM WHEN YOU ANSWER QUESTIONS. :'( (after i read the texted i was like touched, aww mama. itu lah saya mahu sebenarnya, saya menunggu mama call or text akhirnya after subuh baru mama text. mama saya lakukan semua ni semua demi mama dn arwah nenek, mama saya ketepikan minat saya dalam menari even saya dapat tawaran di ASWARA and past all their examination, mama tao kn ni saya minat since i was 3 years. you sent me at auntie malini's dance classes, and when i'm secondary til primary sch i'm involving with kebudayaan. i can dancer, i can cheer (not profession) and i can dance for tarian melayu, but since you and nenek said benda tu tkkn menjamin masa depan saya, saya akur mama. now saya suka dgn apa yg saya buat sekarang! yay! mama, thanks mama <3 )
*ayh : wahai anak ku tersayang cmne exam tadi? ku iringi dgn doa semuga khendaknya (ayh, ayh saya sayang awak, even you're my step father tp ayh lebih care lagi pada abh -.- kenapa lh ayh tk jadi abh saya? :'(
saya sayang ayh, dan saya mgharap abh hantar macam ayh anta tp ternyata ayh lebih ingat saya dari abh. )
*miss.tahlia : yeya, i heard from your mom that today you punya final di uitm. i'm wishing you good luck, wahh suda ada di melak tk mahu mali ke sch lama awak. sekarang ni cheer kita sudah mantap tk macam lulu. (awww, i was shocked bila coach cheer aku text macam tu, happy kut. tp saya tkdapat belajar buat SPILT lg :( and my (Y) still tk tgak sangat. grrr. tp saya happy sbb dapat jd FLYERS maklum lh kn i kn kurus plus kecil. haahahah. miss my xena's girl!) 
* all my friend : eyaa, good luck :)
hah, nmpk kn mereka sayang saya? 
saya punn sayang mereka jugakkkkk! ty for those yg wish 'GGOD LUCK AND GIVE THE SPIRIT'S WORDING' pada saya.
<3

lots of love ; si gedik eyaa farid.

mood : study :)

khamis ni bermula lh final aku,

tp aku macam nth lh, before final pehh study bukan maen lg.

tp aku ttp kena study.

sbb i've promise with my late granny and my mom that i must study hard and be a good girl.

no matter what, i need put more effort on my study because i want achieve in order what i do.

betul kata mama : no matter what, life go on. life never be easier and failures make us become a better person.

and don't give up in what we do.

always ask sth if we don't know, mybe looked foolish for a 5 minutes,

but if we don't ask, we'll be the foolish forever.

hehehe.

mama, family, kawan-kawan, yang tersayang sume support aku.

so? i'll prove that i can do it.

yay!

this cheer for me : i'm fired up!

i'm sizzling! 

when i come to exam i can do it!

yay!

i can do it.

let me yeya yeya yeya, yay!

H, E double L, O

i'm eyaa.

and i wish i'll do the best!

never heard of defeat,

i'll rise to top!

i never stopped.

:)

p.s : i'm exhausted :p

LIFE IN A LOVE.

Escape me?
Never—
Beloved!
While I am I, and you are you,
So long as the world contains us both,
Me the loving and you the loth,
While the one eludes, must the other pursue.
My life is a fault at last, I fear—
It seems too much like a fate, indeed!
Though I do my best I shall scarce succeed—
But what if I fail of my purpose here?

It is but to keep the nerves at strain,
To dry one's eyes and laugh at a fall,
And baffled, get up to begin again,—
So the chase takes up one's life, that's all.
While, look but once from your farthest bound,
At me so deep in the dust and dark,
No sooner the old hope drops to ground
Than a new one, straight to the selfsame mark,
I shape me—
Ever
Removed!

p.s ; adoring love poem by robert browning. he my idole. :)

masa :'(

berikan masa utk faham awak.
berikan masa utk saya kenal siapa awak.
berikan masa utk saya percaya pada awak.
berikan masa utk saya berkata 'SAYA MILIK AWAK'
berikan masa utk saya behenti ada perasaan 'CEMBURU' pada awak.
berikan masa utk saya berfikir adakah saya terbaek utk awak.


*sumpah saya sayang awak, saya cinta awak walaupunn saya bukan milik awak lg.
saya mmg seorang yg CEMBURU tk bertempat, saya hanyalah manusia biasa yg tk pernah lari dari kesalahan :'(
saya suka cemburu sbb saya takut kehilangan awak, tp awak tk pernah faham apa yg saya rasakan.
saya pernah alaminya. bila saya tk cemburu org tu bermesra-mesraan and buat dia jatuh cinta padanya last sekali tinggalkan saya.
:'(
saya lemah, saya tk reti nk jadi kuat. saya cuma sayangkan awak.

p.s : ni bukan ayt saya google or what. ni luahan hati seorang perempuan bernama eyaa farid <3

kaw pergi :'(

Today genap 8 bulan nenek pergi.

yes (!) aku merinduinya.

nenek bila nenek nk datang jumpa kakak?

kakak rindu nk bermanja dgn nenek.

mama asyek marah kakak je,

kalau nenek ada, mesti nenek marah mama kn? :')

kakak kdg kdg jealous ohh dgn org yg ada nenek,

kakak dh tkde dh :'(

nenek happy tk kt sana?

nenek org kata nenek MENINGGAL DUNIA. tp kakak tk percaya sbb mama kata nenek pergi kejap je kn? hee. kakak tnggu nenek okay?

nenek kakak dh nk exam, nenek doakan kakak ye?

BALEK CEPAT NENEK! RINDU NK TDO DGN NENEK LG (!) :'(

p.s : saya tk gila tp saya tao nenek ada dgn saya :')

i'm sorry mama :'(

mama, sorry lh alg tk sengaja sbb tk ingat numb pin BANK ISLAM.
mama, thanks sbb stiill lg bank in kali ketiga. pinky swear afta this tk buat lg. 
promise tknk careless lg! :( 

cara memulihkan keadaan yang buat saya sedih :')

thanks box ku * hand made*

for those who had gave my a sweet memories and present,

i didn't trash it because i'm appreciate it :')

you know what?

saya sudaa belajar menerima segala-galanya.

*yona shahirah ; top up and bracelet *berpisah kerana keluarga :') lost contact. 

*abd rahman ; bukan boyfiee saya, tp hampir menjalinkan hubungan. crushing each other.

dia ni gedik, suka copy paste w.e.m.l. saya and 'euwww' dia pernah jadi superman saya!

dia belikan ' PINK KOALA BEAR' when he going ausie and celebrated eid with his family.

dia juga buat lagu untuk saya 'kenangan kita' dia pemangkin semangat saya! dia tk pernah putus asa untuk tunggu saya.

tp akhirnya dia jadi milik orang laen :)

RIMA & RAHMAN.

heyy superman, awak dh dapat orang yg baek, jaga elok-elok. 

maafkan saya sebab buat awak tertunggu saya, dan thanks jugak sbb memahami keadaan saya. :')

ingat tk masa kt ausie? you mimpi i siap ber-background lagu 'need you know :)'

lagu tu dgn 'for the raise of my life' buat saya ingat awak.

ehh, saya wonderwoman awak kn, dan awak superman saya. 

*asif azimi ; the guys yang paling lama dgn saya, and he the one i'll hate forever and ever! until i died i wont give you forgiveness CASANOVA!

*adhel azmy ; top up, padini shirt, hair clips, earing, mcD and strawberry,

:'( awak kenapalah awak tk pernah percaya kata-kata saya? saya sayang awak, tp awak tk pernah percaya pada saya walaupunn ryan sendiri dah bgtau dkt awak :'(

awak hunny star saya. kita pegy tau concert JUSTIN BIEBER *perjumpaan last? JANJI!

*ryan smith ; top up, rantai, icket monorail and slurpyy.

ryan awak pena jadi pikka boo saya kn? bodokan saya sbb jealous, tp awak tk bg saya peluang macam saya bg pada awak :(

padahal awak dh janji tknk tinggalkan saya? tkpe. benda dh lepas. saya terima dgn hati yg ikhlas. Tp 3 kali awak dumb sy mcmtu je! you just came passed by, kenapa awak? but saya dah relakan hati saya untuk lepaskan awak. 

p.s ; mereka buat saya teringat pada mereka,

tp sume saya dh simpan dlm box.
sbb saya dah tk perlukan kenangan tu lg.

thanks babe sbb pernah HAPPY KAN  ILYA ATHIRA FARID :')

:')

saya tk benci awak, tp saya sudaa berjaya lupakan awak.

terima kaseh sebab buat saya jadi lg kuat :')

Berakhirnya :')

* its over :') 

i'm not stronger than you :(

i can't be chill if anything will make me cry (!)

but, i still can smile and laugh what others do, 

because i'm not wiling to make you hurt.

i'm sorry if still being like a childish or to much jealousy,

if you want to do sth, PLEASE do infront me,

in order that i won't be like baby always crying the small matter.

and yes, I'M TRYING TO HIDE FROM YOU THAT I ALWAYS BE FUCKING JEALOUS IF ANYONE WHO FLIRT WITH YOU.

give me time to faces all this thing :'(

kiss me when i cry,

bless me when i died,

trust me and believe me,

that i always be yours if you still love and need me like i'm doing now.

ENOUGH!

STOP DISTURB MY LIFE (!)

what did you want huh? saya ikut kut kehendak AWAK DAN DIA.

indeed i feel the pain.

sekarang hati saya bukan milik awak (!) FULL STOP.

please, i'm begging to you JANGAN GANGGU ILYA ATHIRA :'(

learn how to understanding :')

yes, i do love you but i need time to understand your ways.
give me some time, i'm willing to do.
if the failures i made it, i just can say ; imma sorry, i put more harder to be the best but its still doesn't working :'(
i'm the girl who are quite jealousy, need more attention and always wanna say YOU'RE MINE :)
a lil bit worried if you're not mine oneday :(
so! 
my goals is to make him happy with me, i'll control my self from annoying things to make him aren't unhappy.

loves xD